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Blogging from A to Z Challenge [April 2015]
Dear Papa
Almost 45
days ago you ceased to physically exist in this world. A couple of days after
that while I was sorting your drawers I found the few letters I had written to
you over the years and the cards and messages your grandchild had sent you
neatly arranged in a folder labelled :special mail.
So today I
am writing another one for that folder because I know this longest-distance
relationship that we have now will not stop you from reading this. There is still so much to be said.
As you were
aging and your ailments were taking their toll on your health and memories, we
often talked about death and the hereafter. I do not know many parents who do
that but I know it was another of your valuable life-lessons for me. We were
both learning to come to terms with the inevitable.
You were
preparing me to face the known miseries of the world without the comfort of
having you there and I was letting you slip gradually into the unknown
hereafter.
No tribute
can rightly summarise what I want to say to you now. But if physical existence
is some kind of a chance at learning life I say Papa you always were and will
be my spine and my voice.
Despite my
personal shortcomings I am proud that you have shaped me into a strong and
independent mind and a compassionate and sensitive soul. Ever since I first
held a crayon or read a word you have done everything to unlock my creativity
and imagination and so it is alright I guess if by genetics I also happen to
pick up some of your annoying habits and traits. J
Almost every
day there are times when I shatter to a million pieces, when I feel like a
rootless tree which will not endure the next storm, when I call out for you
over and over again. But I know you are always watching over me and my little
one. I have lost a parent but I have gained a guardian angel.
Keep sending
me and her your love and life lessons. I promise I will keep growing in your
memory.
PS: I
remember you had once told me – no real learning is ever without pain.
Love
P
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